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Andre: damnnn what happened to your phone?
Me: oh I got this special screen protector that makes it look like it’s cracked so no one will steal it
Andre: woah that’s fucking tight!
Me: yupp and I got it for free hahahah
Andre: that’s a pretty smart idea

Dude I need my screen fixed!!! That was a pretty funny excuse
oh and I just degraded to 3.1.3 so my phone is jailbroken :) awesome

I’m caught up on my 30 day challenge :)

I was I think 13, I had my friend jennifer over, so was Anthony and Junior. we descided to play spin the bottle, Jen went first so she had to kiss Anthony, she was shy so I said it’s not a big deal, so I just kissed him in the cheek, and said there that’s it, haha then I look to junior, and he looked sad, I said what wrong, he said that he didn’t get a kiss, so I grabed him and kissed him. this happened on my bed. ahh to be young again :)

dreams, I have a lot, like a lot a lot…
be a fashion designer, but I just want my designs to be know worldwide, I want to stay hidden, like how bansky is with his art.
to have a fashion house one in Paris and on here in Compton
to have a house, a nice house, doesn’t really matter where
to have my six kids, and I guess get married after I have them all :/
to never to have to worry about money
to always have to friends I have to the end
to just simply be happy and to have someone that loves me just as much as I love him
and Last but not least, for mr. art to come back, Or to just see him again…
I guess that’s the main ones

I wore a black tank top, umm with a red bra, blue polkadoted underwear, and jeans,
then got home changed into a blue shirt and chris’ shorts, to take my dogs a bath,
then had to change because I got soaked thanks to droopy, into a red tank top with white shorts, and green and blue bra, with red underwear that says “work of art” on the back :P haha

ok so this is starting from last Tuesday, I forgot what I did, but wensday I hangout with Mary. we went to Costco and got the ice cream bars, which are really messy to eat, but they are good. then went to Zullys house to see what they’ve been up to, we ate, then we worked on a puzzle. I got a call from my dad saying that Yesica was ready to have her cesection, so I was at the hospital, the babys were born. so that’s how I spent Thursday and Friday doing, seeing my girls at the hospital. Saturday went to chelseys for the kick back, it was a pretty awesome night, yea there were a grip of Asians, and it was pretty hot, sorta reminded me of six flags :P
yup had fun, well what I can remember, had a good talk with one of my guys, then went back to chelseys, spent like 3 hours talking to chris, then slept for a couple mins, woke up, then went home for the day. Sunday layer in bed watching tv and movies while drawing, well forcing myself to draw, which really sucks :(
Monday, stayed at home alone bored outta my mind, then went to dennys with Mary and Ronnie, after went to amsterdams, then went home.
Tuesday made breakfast for me and my dogs, got dressed, then went to go see my nieces, got home, cleaned my room, waited for chris to come home, and here we are :)

my dad got rid of my beach cruiser that had a basket… :(
he said he thought I wouldn’t need it since I have my car, this sucks

umm I don’t have a bag, but in have a wallet,
I have:
my California I.d.
my drivers license
my school I.d.
best buy gift card
vons club card
gas card
picture of junior
tons of receipts
and $80.71
oh and my friends roller derby trading card
and a note from chris sayin “you smell knee grow!” :)

I have a brother, he’s the best, he just became a dad, I love him with all my heart, he knows how to make me laugh, especially during the wrong times :) but he does get annoying which is pretty much alll brother sister realstionships,
umm he basically knows a lot about me, he’s the greatest brother I could ask for… oh I hate the fact that he can speak Spanish way way way better than me, haha

I won’t be drinking beer or soda for 3 months… :( thanks to chris’ stupid diet plan,

ok one reason why I don’t believe in god or the church… I hate it when people say that gay people are going to hell, or that it is a sin for them to love the same sex, and it can be fixed, that they aren’t born with it. umm just because you’re gay doesn’t make you any less of a person, it doesn’t mean that you are bad and evil and will burn in hell, those people who say gay people are evil deserve to go to hell, in my opinion, I love gay people, they have the guts to follow their heart just like all of us, but they stuggle more. screw if people don’t respect you for who you love, fuck them I love you!

that is all, damn you MTV show hahah

well I woke up wearing a red bra and some red plaid underwear… it was hot! haha
then took a shower and wore my bra with hearts all around it with black and white striped underwear with a yellow tank top and chris’ old, and I mean old ecko shorts that I love more than him :) with my old black adidas, I didn’t dress up because I wasn’t going anywhere,

i am the biggest discreet atheist around hahaha I have never been religious, yea I was baptized catholic and did my first communion, mainly because I was forced to by my mom. I never believed in god or Jesus or whatever his or her name is. mainly because there was no proof that he really did exist, I found it sorta stupid that if you did something bad, all you have to do is go to church and ask for forgiveness, pretty lame, like let’s say if some guy rape a girl, he goes to church and bam, he is forgiven, sorta stupid. I had a lot of people that have tried to convince me that god is real, so far they are not very convincing, I find it sorta stupid going to church and listening to a preacher or pope talking about what to do inorder to get to heaven, and about life and how to live it. that guy doesn’t know nothing about life, he has never experience anything, he’s just bullshitting. or I think it’s really stupid when people god worshiping people judge people who don’t believe in god, we are good people, maybe better that you guys, we don’t judge you for being a bad person, well I just make fun of the fact that you believe that there’s a guy watching your every move, and controls your life. you control your life. you don’t need to believe in god or that mumbo jumbo to be a good person. it’s common sense what we should do or not do, plain and simple. but now I see it as god being to some people as Santa clause is to me :) you know that there is no proof that he exist but it gives you a good feeling when you think about Santa clause, I think he’s better than god, we get presents from him, and he rides that pretty cool sleigh too hahah

I respect peoples beliefs, only and if only, when they respect mine, or all hell will break lose! hahah

hmm a moment…
I don’t know :/

well at the moment I have 2 :) guy and girl
well my girl bestfriend is mary. I meet her my senior year. I saw her hanging out in our group, she was wearing a tshirt with a guys picture on it, asked about her and found out it was her dad. I felt sorry for her, once Cynthia left for Tracy, I started talking to her. been hanging out with her ever since. she’s pretty strange just like me, she knows pretty much everything about me, she is not like my sister, she is my sister, she’s been there through all the goodtimes and all the fucked up times. she’s pretty awesome and I love laughing at her hahah and eating with her, I love how she’s always down to go to random places and puts up with my fashion lingo hahah

next is chris, I meet him at my friends house when I was 16, couple months before Junior left. we were together almost everyday that summer, got with him went good, shit happened so we broke up couple months later. them I saw him again at my friends party, got drunk and had a long talk with him all night and morning. ever since then we became friends, just friends. he is the first guy who I sneaked into my window, I remember we used to just lie in bed and watch shows, I made him watch dawsons creek, poor guy. there have always been talks about getting back together but I never have a good feeling everytime he brings it up, he is mainly the reason why I am the person I am, I’m really comfortable with him. my dogs like him. I can truly say if you want to know everything there is to know about me, he’s the one to ask. I love that I can tell him about my guys and still get to cuddle up with him and watch dawsons creek or Gilmore girls without him judging me, but he’ll let me know when I’m getting out of line. when we were together I was in love with him, now that we are friends I still love him, but I’m not in love. oh and and I love how he leaves random stuff in my room, lye started the belle collection and he puts random pictures of us in my pockets, lame

yea I’m really late…
umm well I woke up at 8, made me and the dogs breakfast. packed up got some money, then called Mary, went to Mary’s house to pick her up, then went to chelseys to help her out with the dinner, then got ready, went to go drop off a jacket at martins house, saw the guys, came back and ate, then went swimming, then had a deep conversation with Martin while still being a perv haha :) then went to sleep

my definition of love is when you are bored and the only thing that pops in your head is that person, and you quietly smile, and for that moment in time, when everything is going bad, you feel alone, for that moment you suddenly feel like you’re on top of the world because you have someone to think about, someone to love, and for that strange reason, feeling or whatever you wanna call it, you can suck it up and live.

well this is from yesterday, mmm now I feel fat now :(

in the morning we went running in the back, after we ate a ham and turkey sandwich, then later on I had another sandwich.
mom came come around 4 so I made eggs for droopy, I had a taste of that. then my mom made mash potatoes, pasta and chicken, I only ate the mash potatoes and pasta. after I had a slice of carrot cake. oh I forgot earlier in the morning after we ran, so it was 9 I think, my bf Made me a drink with watermelon and lime In the blender, it was amazing :)
mmm I think I had some crackers in-between the sandwiched and my moms cooking :)

I am grateful for my parents, they helped my out with every problem I’ve had in life. I live my dad, he is truly my superhero, I love the fact if I break something or crash, he looks on the bright side, and would say stuff like ” well it was bound to happened” or ” it could have been worse”. I am more of a daddys girl. I make my dad happy everyday, I joke with him a lot. what I love most is arguing with my dad, it may sound weird but we have fun when we argue, like we never end up getting mad, of course my mom hates it, but we laugh. my dad has taught me a lot of things, he encouraged me to be open minded and question everything, that’s my main reason why I don’t believe in religion, my dads the same way, he’s just more discreet. he is the biggest kid I know, keeps me young haha. as for my mom I love her just a much, but I really don’t feel as close to her as I do with my dad. I always say that my dad is mine, and my mom is my brothers. my mom is silly, and very courageous, but I hate the fact that she thinks I’m still a little girl and treats me as such, only when there are guys around. over all I love my parents, yea I still get money from them, mainly because my dad doesn’t want me to work to focus on school, my mom on the other hand wants me to work while going to school, what my mom doesn’t get is that I am going to two schools, an hour away from eachother, and work would complete drain me, which will show in my work, I’m not writing papers, or studying to take test as if I were to study nursing or something involving that, I’m making garments, gowns, drawing, and making patterns, may seem easy but I think doing a paper and just taking test would be way easier. but I don’t want to do that just for money, I don’t want to be rich, I just want to be comfortable. my mom will really never know…

this is going to be a novel haha jk umm I first meet my first love when we were like 9 I remember my brother used to make me fight him and his brother, they were over the house all the time with my brother. we stared going out when we were 12, when we kissed in my room after a game of spin the bottle. haha we were together for 3 months until his brother found out and told my brother, so we broke it off. a couple months went by and we were together again, we spent everyday together all day. We really didn’t act like we were together because we didn’t want his brother, who had a crush on me, and my brother, who would kill us if he found out, to know anything. well my brother got suspicious and he started hanging out with the new neighbors, so I didn’t see him as much, we broke it off again when I started hanging out with the neighbors and he got into it with them after they shot up his moms car with paintballs, after that I didn’t see him for 2 years, until one day he was ridding his bike down the street and I was outside with my friends, my friend thought he was cute, I didn’t recognized who he was, he was much taller and more muscular, yumm haha well he told my friend who he was and she looked at me, I was shocked, after that. then he and my brother started hanging out again, so I saw him more often. he was over the house everyday playing playstation with my brother. then we started hanging out when he would come over. after a while he started coming over to see me and not my brother, he asked me out after we walked to the store alone together. I said yes, we were together again everyday. I found it weird that he didn’t go to school, but I kind of didn’t think nothing of it. we was at my house right when I came home from school and stayed over until I got sleepy, and on the weekends he stayed over till 1. then my on my 16th birthday he came to the party, he felt bad for not buying me anything but I told him it was fine. well next day I found out he was moving away in a week. I was bummed out. the night he was going to leave he shows up to my house. I was cleaning my room and heard a knock, I asked who it was but no one said anything. I opened it and there he was with a big pot of flowers and a stuffed monkey that said I love you, till this day that was the best gift I have ever gotten, we said our goodbyes, cracked jokes… and watched him drive off and tell the new neighbors who were now moving into his house to turn off the light because they were charging him for that day hahahah well that is the last time I say him. found him on myspace like 3 years ago and talked to him everyday, then he deleted it, now I have no way to contact him again, the flower pot he gave me, my brother accidentally threw it away, and the monkey was gone :( well that’s it

on to the next one…

for making me cry!!!!!!

well more like tear up :’) hahah Dude that made my day, and we all know how lame today was. I am really happy to call you a friend :) it’s funny how our bestfriends are cousins haha crazy shit! and yes I am a badass hahahah

I really miss taking pictures :(

ahh damn,
ok I’m Brenda from Compton, CA. I’m 22, umm female last time I checked hahah, umm I am currently going to two schools, LATTC &LBCC, both for fashion design. Been sewing for almost 4yrs now. I live at home with my parents, brother and two dogs. Umm single for 4 years now, and proud woot woot! haha jk
currently not working but interning, but to be honest I don’t like it there anymore :/ .
I dream a lot and think too much, I remember everything, well most of it. I listen a lot, but sometimes I wish people would listen to my problems for a change. currently car-less as of today, sucks because my car is my life. but wished someone else can drive me around for a change. Umm… I adore watching movies, well I guess that will be it, for now…
oh and I’m expecting twin nieces this month hhahahahaha can’t wait :)

Day 01 – Introduce yourself

Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail

Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail

Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail

Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail

Day 06 – Your day, in great detail

Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail

Day 08 – A moment, in great detail

Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail

Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail

Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail

Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail

Day 13 – This week, in great detail

Day 14 – What you wore today, in great detail

Day 15 – Your dreams, in great detail

Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail

Day 17 – Your favorite memory, in great detail

Day 18 – Your favorite birthday, in great detail

Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail

Day 20 – This month, in great detail

Day 21 – Another moment, in great detail

Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail

Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail

Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail

Day 25 – A first, in great detail

Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail

Day 27 – Your favorite place, in great detail

Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail

Day 29 – Your aspirations, in great detail

Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail

currently pissed at my mom because of Sunday… so I have been on mute status when I’m around her, she asked me if I was gonna do what I told her I wanted to do a while ago, but I told her I would think about it and walked away, ahh making my mom pissed feels sorta good, god I’m evil >:) if she’s gonna act immature well then so am I muhhahahahahah!!!! hah

that’s how I’m feeling today >:)