pearlst

ummm i would like to go home now, i am seriously wasting time in this office -__-

i do wanna make stuff, but they dont come out just like i would like them to come out :(

skyping with chris is the one thing preventing me from killing myself out here :P

oh and btw im not suicidal, so chill.

my dad’s jokes are annoying, i wish we could have a normal conversation for once

and he doesnt have any pictures of him, -____- 

it rain last night, so i thought it would be a little cooler today, wore a t-shirt and jeans. walked to work and i am hot as hell, because the stupid sun is beaming on us the whole time. 

so my hair is a mess and i am drenched in fucking sweat. so not a pretty day at all. well ever since i been here, there has never been a pretty day, except when i wear red. red works every time :)

saucysalmon:

If your bra is too tight, it’s uncomfortable. If you’re a boy and your bra is too tight, I’m uncomfortable.

i wish it was next wednesday and it was my last day here…but sadly its only tuesday…come on week go faster, i dont know what to do here now, im done with everything, so here i sit in front of the laptop sweating my ass off in this little office.

ugh i gotta do what i hate doing, suck it up! hahaha 

jk i never do that :P

and i kind of dont wanna leave this office, because the guy who has the biggest crush on me is outside in the sewing area. I dont wanna talk to him, and fake laugh at everything he says, because most of the time i cant understand his slow spanish, and weird pronunciations. I need to start flirting with the youngin’s here, like the one in the cage who’s in charge of the equipment and scissors.  i feel bad because i dont know his name :(. well mister, be prepared to get flirted on!

p.s. they tried to give me some drink, which is basically rotten milk, thats it. So i tried to sneak it out and throw it away, but everyone was looking at me, so i had to try it. So with that being said im feeling a little nauseous this morning, and this damn heat isnt making it better :(

i wanted to go home early, but it cost 180  so i gotta suck it up and be here :P

well i managed to get the overlock machine threaded while everyone was at lunch. 

and then i sewn up a dress, which i sewn the facing on wrong because im lazy, but now i guess i have to make another one anyways. damn damn damn

oh and had the best dream ever last night.

i had a dream i was with the person i still have feelings for, and i got picked up by my mom and my brother from the airport and he and his brother were in the car. so i awkwardly said hi and sat down. we then started talking, and the subject of weather i had a boyfriend came up, i said no. so then he looked at my hand and ran his fingers on the top of my hand, and then he looked at me and smiled. i have goosebumps just thinking about it. so then we got out to drop off my brother at his friends house, where my high school crush was at. so i pretended i didnt see him when i got out, and my guy held my hand. *goosebumps*  we then walked into the back to the garage, and i told him everything i always wanted to tell him, and he said he felt the same way. Then he explain about why he didnt come to see me after a long as time. Then we were about to kiss im assuming, and my brother walked in and woke up sweating, with the fan on and the window i left open closed -__- ugh!!!!! fuck my life, this dream is just what it is a dream :( hate it

because if i happen to died in this country, away from home, i will have your name on my wrist.  well and someone else’s too